I'll make ur head turn.. twice, and if not then three.

So, as soon as me and amalia came into the school it was an immediate reaction. Yeah sure obama won. BIG WHOOP. first black president and its history in the making. wow. I dunno if theres something wrong with me that I really just dont care, or are there are other people that feel the same way as me?.

Haha I realized that my curly hair makes me feel flirty. That is pretty.odd.
I'm talking to white freshie tomorrow. He literally gave me.. well the O-word.

Listening to Avenged Sevenfold alot right now. I've been more emo than anything these past few days.
I want a stuffed animal.

So, as soon as me and amalia came into the school it was an immediate reaction. Yeah sure obama won. BIG WHOOP. first black president and its history in the making. wow. I dunno if theres something wrong with me that I really just dont care, or are there are other people that feel the same way as me?.

Haha I realized that my curly hair makes me feel flirty. That is pretty.odd.
I'm talking to white freshie tomorrow. He literally gave me.. well the O-word.

Listening to Avenged Sevenfold alot right now. I've been more emo than anything these past few days.
I want a stuffed animal.

im making a new mysapce. hahaha

The things that made my weekend great was:

1. The success of emo day

2. Northern Downpour music video! (whoo)

3. Panic at the discos " its almost halloween" video.

Thats all, but its sad that I couldnt attend to the panic concert on sat. i was depressed for the whole day. T-T

Blue Twinkle
The twinkle of his eye
The smile that lifts his cheek
I sigh and wish he was mine
Forever by my side
I cry these tears of sorrow
No, the dream won't ever come true
But I'm still lost in love's surreal
Blue.
                      by: Rebecca Seetahal

Just letting it all out.

My dry mouth makes it hard to swallow as I yell out insanities toward my sibling sitting on the couch. I hate being woken up, it's like a big pms monster just waiting to explode at you. Bam! Just like that, you can't stop me, and the only thing that keeps me down is 3 peat. My life may not be as hard as others, but can't you tell that I'm fragile and weak, so I walk in the clouds searching for my story, my place, my spotlight. Sure that sounds nice, but it's like everyone's on me, holding me back, choking me, fighting me, drowning me to get out of my clouds, cause my dreams wont come true they say. I slash my fist the hardest but I miss and I fall and accept my defeat to everything.


So Yarii and Romeo only lasted 4 or 3 school days of going out. I dont want to be mean to her but I'm just saying that I think he got turned off by her. Because she's bopping around trying to get attention by everyone. And no offence but what the hell was she talking about when she was like oh i'm the queen of the school, and if you dont know that just ask anybody. I'm sorry but if anyone was to come up to me and ask me that, I would have answered hell no, cause she's not. You could tell he got turned off by her, and the whole taking some time off thing was definately a breakup because you cant take a break on a relationship that didnt even last a week. So that was pretty stupid on his part, I'm not on either side because he seemed into her and now it's like a no, and I think it was pussy of him to write it in a letter. But just beacause yarii broke up with him, i'm not going to stop talking to him because he's pretty cool. He kinda scares me though because he's got such piercing blue eyes. Lots of crap happened today. But it's 12:00 am on the dot, so peace.

Skulls is something that caught my attention because it said it was an autographed copy, and so I picked it up looking for the autograph. When I realized what the book was about, I stopped looking for the autograph and started to flip through the pages. This was so amazing to me. Every day of the year he made a skull out of anything he could. Keyboard keys, cooked and uncooked rice, wire, soy sauce; etc.
I decided to do the same thing, but with hearts (since I cant live without drawing em).
Well I'm gonna start with something simple and infact im going to run off right now from dah screen and go make something now. (runs off... *wish me luck*)

Friday October 17th was MTL's Talent Show and it was the hottest one yet. Mostly because there was a rock band, there was shirt ripping, confetti, cupcakes, party string, and lots and lots of dancing, not to mention the ghosts from the past.
^^( I make it sound way too good)^^

The great ones of the show are obviously: Otis the kitty aka P***Y; Myasia; Nayelin; Ana; The Rock Band; Michael; Darrius; Alex; and everybody else.
Of course my body is aching at the moment, I actually tripped yesterday and hit and old guy while doing so. My knee is bruised up pink and blue, its pretty bad
O-O < me after the talent show cause it made me go on EMO status.

Here's what happened today. He he

• 
  So I was lying my head down and this cute kid comes over and he's like "It's not time for sleeping". I'm like whaa? Amalia starts laughing and so we both look back and he's looking back and he's smiling. He he. Nigguh I sleep when I want. That's my block you walking on!.
• "My milkshake brings all the girls to the yard and their like it's better than yours.. hahaha" - Stupid Melvin during Lunch
• BIG ASS JAY! Jay has the biggest and tightest ass I have ever seen and felt. It's so perky too. I just love hitting it. So he goes by big ass jay, and i dont think he minds by being surrounded by all these girls touching him. I'm pretty sure he likes it...
• OMG LEMONHEAD KNOWS OLIVIA LIKES HIM!. How disgusting, but it was about time. I wonder if he likes her back. I'm not sure. We have gym class together, but I dont want to ask him. It's got nothing to do with mee. >.< So happy though. It's about time.. and besides with the whole thing that happened with Adrian, this could be good for her i guess. (flashback) no wait... thats a bad thing.
• I got molested today. LITERALLY. How come when I say that everyone starts laughing and doesnt believe me. But it's true..Platano molested me during gym. I was laughing the whole entire time. He's planing to make a dominican party.. and wants me and yesmin to come to this party on friday. Somewhere near grand concourse.
• So here are the list of people I can't say NO to: Jimmy(chill out chill out) [he's actually pretty cool, i thought he was just a sex maniac.. but theres more to him. thats cool i guess], My first brother Justin. (something about him just makes you want to ya know?) Of course Brendon (just urie.. not the one from school)

Yah dats wut happened. I'm sooo tired. I'm getting sck once again which is really going to suck cause i missed like three days of school because of a cold.

 

= ^-^ = I luvv "Hospital" by The Used.
OMGEE. Brendon is going to take a part of Forgive Durden's new album, it's going to be a musical.
vvv

You guys can also go to this site for the characters and to hear a preview of the songs: http://raziasshadow.com/
I'm sure you guys can't wait as much as I can't. <33
Best part is Brendon Urie is in it <3333.
^^ Heard he's good at kareoke, or however you spell it.

So my friend wants me to get a bf badly. eh. She wants to go bf shopping for me. = I'm not looking forward to this. Although Yesmin said I could get most of the guys I want. Heh.
My mom thinks I still like Melvin. Gosh mom, eyecandy.. duh!. It's called getting prepared for gym and ALWAYS standing behind so you get a good view of that ass. <33 *o* starry eyed surprised. ha!ha!

The 1st party of this year. Ta-dah! Of course I'm bringing rice cause I'm participating this year unlike last year. Although we did have some few good parties last year though. So my essay was the BEST ONE out of all the thousdans of essays so i'm like all happy bopping around smiling and stuff. I persuaded my dean to let us wear hats and i'm going to try to talk to Justin on monday. If I succeed talking to him, my tuesday and wednesday will be the best yet. I frigging love him! Me Amalia and Justin have so many moments and he doesnt even know it, so i'm like trying to just get rid of that whole thinking of what to say i'm just going to be like yoo.

TO JUSTIN (MY BESTEST SIBLING IN THE WORLDDD): SUCK MY DECK BETCH!

I want to go to a concert dude. Oh yeah I love gym. And i know i said i didnt like pony anymore.. but dammit his face is just sooooo cute. It sucks that he looks so good in sweatpants. mmm. "Like being drenched in cold water during a hot summer afternoon".

I went to the Medieval Festival today. It really opened up my eyes to some crazy stuff. Like I love the style and the way they dress. I didnt buy anything cause I didnt want to spend, but I know next time I'm definately going to just splurge on everything. Except pickles cause i'm a picky eater.

Me and Amalia are planning to invite most of the rapeable freshies (that we own) to go to the movies and maybe just maybe we might ask freshie fresh even though he pisses me off.

I LOVE BRENDON. <33

Boy am I worn out. Just finished writing a persuasive essay.

So answer this: Should students be allowed to wear hats at school?

That is the reason why I am oh-so-excited about the new buzz music player.
I can rock out to my favorite artists and bands now <33.
And I must say what a nice picture.Brendon is rocking out my colors.He's got such nice clean fingers.

I always jinx myself. I got zallii.Could be cuz im missing a credit, but not sure. I realized that when you dont have much to choose from,you take what you get. Can't wait till summer till i get a job. Mahh nigguh I get payed 300$ a week! A FRIGGING WEEK!. Yeahhh..
Oh yeahh anti-social is bi..but he wants it to be a secret. Ehhh when i first foundout i was like..I KNEWIT. cause it was oh-so-obvious. So yeahh.
OH YEAH BY THE WAY I DONT HAVE A PHONE RIGHT NOW. BLAME MY SISTER. SHE'S THE STUPID IDIOT THAT'S TO BLAME.

Okay so Brendon is back and I'm not sure if it's for good but if it was it'd be a miracle.
He totally scared the living crap outta meh today tho. I was at gym chillin' and all that jazz and he comes in andi'm like :O omg its b-den.
So like supposedlly Brendon urie has a buzznet... what's that about?.  Umm if that is true I will die. No literally. Everyone knows I'm in LOVE with B-DEN<33 Even though friggin Panic isnt playing in New York this time so I have to travel to Newark, New Jersey. Blahh. But as long as I see Brendon, i'm not missing ANY of their shows. The 1st time i saw him was at Madison Square Garden then Roseland and i'm not sure for NJ.. since i cant stand it. But the brightside the Jonas Brothers come from NJ..so heyy.

I'm pissed off that i'm not getting acting anymore, and it was the perfect period for me. Last Period. My Acting teacher just loves me, so it workedout. But New schedules had to fuck that up for me cause now i have some other class. I just hope I dont get Zalli which is this boring ass physics teacher for 9th grade. Blah. (my dinner just got cold) I wouldn't mind Stage Design. I enjoy drawing because he also loves me <33. Soo.. just as long as i dont have to see Brendon for 2 periods i'm soo deliciously smacking good.

OLIVIA LOVES ROCK ON!

Sam called this afternoon. I dont think she's in the area. But I didnt pick up cause i had visitors and i think that's totally rude. Besides.. i should be kicking her ass for that picture. Even if it's not so bad, but it brings back embarresing times!!

life is pretty much ehh right now. srry if this is so boring.

Well, Misfits played today. I missed it. Besides I was sick. However I couldn't stay at home much longer. I wtched Juno just now and it made me kind of sad. To think that some people shouldnt be parents and stuff. Crap! Which reminds me of that monologue i have got to finish writing for Acting. Eh oh well. Kind of made me want to have a boyfriend. But I know I can't have one at the moment.
I realized I hate going out with my friends. Gee, i sound so loving. But it's true. And this goes out to my female friends cause my guy friends i can take unless they're just dicks and annoying. Like we would just be sitting on the swings or something and a semi cute adorable looking guy would pass by and it seems like everyones hormones are raging, just waiting for their virginity to be gone and in some cases end up preggers or get an STD or just get "lucky" and get some and honestly it's just gross to me right now the whole idea of sex when you're not even fully developed yet. It's kind of sick. Truth is my friends are doing it but some are stil little virgins like me although not all of them agree on my whole staying clean until im married plan. Some dont even think it's going to happen. Shows what true friends i got though. ;[] Guess that whole sex topic has been around me lately. Doesnt bother me that my friends are doing it. It's their lifes. Whatever. Although it does feel a little weird after you know. It's weird because it's like you kind of get images of how it happens but they're not detailed. It's sick yes i know. I have a friend who i thought was the most innocent one in the crew and she ended up losing it first than all of us. ;[] things happen yanoo..?

I would only ever give it up before marriage to a famous person. And only because i doubt I'd EVER see them again.
But I just really really really really really wish it was Brendon from PATD or Kirk from Metallica ;[] meh.

Days havent been looking good for me since I am home on a wednesday afternoon sitting infront of my computer screen copying music from CD's that I lost throughout the whole hacking scene. Apaprt from me sitting here, i am sick with a cold. I got a fever, my eyes are woozy and i am dizzy, my throat hurts and i can barely breathe. I want a strawberry halls so bad but i just ate the last one a couple of minutes ago. I missed Sams call yesterday. I was doing laundry because i had no clean clothes and my sister wanted to watch the game. I think I can predict games, I knew the yankees were going to lose. I shouldve stayed home, I didnt feel like walking anywhere, but i went anyways because i wanted a mcchicken but when I got it i didnt want it anymore, but i ate it anyway. So.. sick..

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to go see..
Motorhead and Misfits on Sept. 20th!!
or..
Rise Against, Alkaline trio, and thrice on Oct. 14th!!
or..
Chiodos, escape the fate on Nov. 17th!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Larissa came back from Brazil today, and it was pretty exciting, but she kind of got me in trouble in english.
Songs that I am listening to at the moment...
At the moment I am listening to The Beatles "revolution" because that song is just fricking odee mother effing  rocks my effing mother effing fricking socks and other every single fricking awesome rocking way you can fricking say it!.
At the moment I am listening to Chris Brown "Take you down" because the guitars are hot, and the way Chris sings the words seems like you're there and you can visualize what he's talking about.. and let me tell you.. it is hot. :[] omagah.
At the moment I am listening to The Misfits "Scream" because the intro is sexy and because i like that they wear their own band shirts in the video. Like come on dude. Come on. :[]
At the moment I am listening to Bullet for my valentine "All these things I hate" because BFMV has been following me ever since anti-social came to my school. And because this song is so catchy. I remember the first time i heard it. I couldn't stop thinking about it the whole day.
At the moment I am listening to Cobra Starship "Prostitution is the world's oldest profession" because it's kind of stupid when you think about it, but it's very catchy. I love it.

Eh Eh Eh Eh Eh Eh Eh Eh Eh Eh Eh Eh Eh Eh Eh Eh Eh

I'm so tired of the way things are happening right now. All it took was a monday and a rainy tuesday for me to explode.
Eh. I'm mad and i dunno why. I have an idea why but i dont wanna talk about it. I just wanna say that sexytime shouldnt be taken for granted. Lol Sexytime.

I made up a song. It's called the wedgie song.
THE WEDGIE SONG
~ Wedgie, in your pants
~Wedgie, up your ass!

_____________________ <33 stupid. I know.

I hate lots of ppl right now, ppl i havent seen in a rlly long time.

I'm not sure what to feel for you anymore. I dont want to go through with this, and i was afraid you were going to say it. So, i'm just going to call you. And I dunno what i'm going to say. But i hope i say what is right.
should i be a good friend or should i do what i think is right.
but im glad i wasnt forgotten.
but i think im being used.

CONFUSED.and USED.                          
_____________________________

Well i saw Manni today. he looked weird, and i knew he recognized me. He looks good. The other day i saw Peter. O///O mad embarresing. Made eye contact and i couldnt control myself, i was dying. I was such a stupid idiot in 7th grade. I was way ugly too. Well anyways.. enough about stupidity. Manni works at governors island at a bike rental place. That was a terrible experience. Currently listening to "Got Money". Everyone knows that's mahh song. <33 And "Disturbia". Well i'll post the pictures up so you can see, and in case someone tries to hack into our com again. Jesus. I am so mad i lost all my music and my pictures, videos.. dammit. O`~`O gahh.
Well, apart from that school has been good, i guess. David got snakebites, i dont think he's over Yarinet. So basically he made a big deal of him changing schools and he didnt. His ex-girlfriend is back. That must be odee hard for him too. Space Monkey is nice to look at i realized. Since last year but this year is bettah. I miss Marshall. =( I miss Larissa as well. I miss Sam too!!. I havent seen shorty since last year. I wonder if he transferred. If he did.. he's lucky. I got beef with FRESHIE FRESHH!. He's adorable but i got beef with him cause he cant match. Lol so everytime i see him in the hallway i just get mad or i give him a bad look. lmfao. there are like odee freshmens this year.
Well yeah thats what happened today.
A IS FOR APPLES J IS FOR JACKS!

Ex-girlfriends are always a pain in the ass. Whether the guy still loves em or doesn't. Especially when she hacks into your computer and the only thing left for you to do is delete everything, including your myspace, e-mails, your pictures, your music!. I honestly wish the very worst for her. Unfortunately I only have the pictures saved on here, and the ones on my photobucket. I'm trying to get all my pictures back.
INCLUDING THE 1,000 SOMETHING PICTURES OF BRENDON!
arggh. all my stories. everything.

im going to die without my music.

schools good though.

i havent heard from the other brendon since the 1st day of shcool.

Whew! I made it through the first day, i think that deserves a round of applause. *(my very special round of applause)*
Ill go through all my classes, and unlike last year I didnt get lost and was on the right floor!.

1st pd- Global History (Ms."G")- Ive had Ms. G before, so i dont think this will be so bad. Hopefully. Last year i tried really really hard to pass her class. Shes kind of hard, but shes funny and cool to make deals with.

2nd pd- Earth Science (Ms. Coburn)- Honestly, I think shes super weird. Her talking about the inner shadow and positivity and stuff is a lil creepy. I like her though because she likes the way i dress, and anyone who thinks that is cool! (like the freshie who thought my extensions were cool!)

3rd pd- Phys Ed (Mr. Soles *pervert*)- I have to have this class every day except wednesdays which kind of works out with my schedule. Unlike last year, I might pass this class because Amber, DeAndre, and Becca are in this class. But guess whos also in my class. Ill give you a hint: His name starts with M, and hes a biter cause hes got my DCs. `>.~`rahh.

3rd pd(wednesdays)- Earth Science Lab (Ms. Coburn)- I havent had this class. But Ill have to wait till tomorrow.

4th pd- Lunch

5th pd-Geometry (Mr. Pfifer)- I feel for this dude. Honestly. He has such a hard time, but i like where he sat me which is cool. I like the thought that Larissa has this class along with the rest of us, all except Yesmin. `>.~` rahh. Anyways today in class Joel was making us laugh. I wonder if hes got that class, but he was making Yarinet mad. Well because of their history that wasnt really a history because well.. yeah.

6th pd- English (Ms. Emmanuel)- I got in trouble with her the first day and for the stupidest reason too! Well i didnt get in trouble that much, she just called me out. But nothing really big. I was laughing at Fat Lil Notebook, which is my pink little journal that has a review of my summer in the front. Ive had her before but for study skills and shes alright. She gives us alot of freedom, but shes still kind of strict.

7th pd- General Science (Mr. Harkness *like Darkness*)- This class is just well random. The dude is this white guy and for the first day of school we didnt do anything. But he looks like hes gonna be a pain in the arse. Yesmin is in this class with me, and i realize me and her... we can actually talk. I never knew that. I used to like feel so uncomfortable talking to her, but now its different. Betsey is also in this class. Shes different than others because shes just there. Travis, Eric, Rammien, Carlos, and this guy that looks like James Franco (even though i know that if i was to ever show anyone.. they wouldnt agree.. because i have a different view of James Franco. JESUS!!) but his name is Brendon. When i found out, i was like *O* rllyz!?

8th pd- Acting (Mr. Browning)- Do I really look that old. I do not look like im in 11th grade. Come on dude, im mad short. DeAndre is in this class, and I know im probbay going to get in trouble because of him or im going to get him in trouble. Which is not that hard hes got serious ADHD!. William is almost in every class of mine.. and well yeah. Its a lil weird this schedule. But i guess ill deal. *sigh*

Its been a long long long long long long long long long day.
Its officially the end of summer. Although the sun is still shining and toasting us up.

Whew! I made it through the first day, i think that deserves a round of applause. *(my very special round of applause)*
I'll go through all my classes, and unlike last year I didnt get lost and was on the right floor!.

1st pd- Global History (Ms."G")- I've had Ms. G before, so i dont think this will be so bad. Hopefully. Last year i tried really really hard to pass her class. She's kind of hard, but she's funny and cool to make deals with.

2nd pd- Earth Science (Ms. Coburn)- Honestly, I think she's super weird. Her talking about the inner shadow and positivity and stuff is a lil creepy. I like her though because she likes the way i dress, and anyone who thinks that is cool! (like the freshie who thought my extensions were cool!)

3rd pd- Phys Ed (Mr. Soles *pervert*)- I have to have this class every day except wednesdays which kind of works out with my schedule. Unlike last year, I might pass this class because Amber, De'Andre, and Becca are in this class. But guess who's also in my class. I'll give you a hint: His name starts with M, and he's a biter cause he's got my DC's. `>.~`rahh.

3rd pd(wednesdays)- Earth Science Lab (Ms. Coburn)- I havent had this class. But I'll have to wait till tomorrow.

4th pd- Lunch

5th pd-Geometry (Mr. Pfifer)- I feel for this dude. Honestly. He has such a hard time, but i like where he sat me which is cool. I like the thought that Larissa has this class along with the rest of us, all except Yesmin. `>.~` rahh. Anyways today in class Joel was making us laugh. I wonder if he's got that class, but he was making Yarinet mad. Well because of their history that wasnt really a history because well.. yeah.

6th pd- English (Ms. Emmanuel)- I got in trouble with her the first day and for the stupidest reason too! Well i didnt get in trouble that much, she just called me out. But nothing really big. I was laughing at Fat Lil' Notebook, which is my pink little journal that has a review of my summer in the front. I've had her before but for study skills and she's alright. She gives us alot of freedom, but she's still kind of strict.

7th pd- General Science (Mr. Harkness *like Darkness*)- This class is just well random. The dude is this white guy and for the first day of school we didnt do anything. But he looks like he's gonna be a pain in the arse. Yesmin is in this class with me, and i realize me and her... we can actually talk. I never knew that. I used to like feel so uncomfortable talking to her, but now it's different. Betsey is also in this class. She's different than others because she's just there. Travis, Eric, Rammien, Carlos, and this guy that looks like James Franco (even though i know that if i was to ever show anyone.. they wouldnt agree.. because i have a different view of James Franco. JESUS!!) but his name is Brendon. When i found out, i was like *O* rllyz!?

8th pd- Acting (Mr. Browning)- Do I really look that old. I do not look like i'm in 11th grade. Come on dude, i'm mad short. De'Andre is in this class, and I know i'm probbay going to get in trouble because of him or i'm going to get him in trouble. Which is not that hard he's got serious ADHD!. William is almost in every class of mine.. and well yeah. It's a lil weird this schedule. But i guess i'll deal. *sigh*

It's been a long long long long long long long long long day.
It's officially the end of summer. Although the sun is still shining and toasting us up.